An array of emotions.

A verrrrrrrry good morning to all you Cosmic Cats out there!

I wonder who reads this space anymore but how are you doing, on a lovely breezy Friday morning? :) It's perfect weather for a stroll around the neighbourhood. Reminds me of mornings in spring/summer half the globe around in good ol' Queensbury, and I'm missing the little town sorely. It doesn't help that I went through our WAT photo album last night, scouring for pictures to print for Maggie P's birthday surprise.

Anyway, sorry for the long hiatus, it's been too long baby! Nothing much has been happening, life is easy and slow-moving before work commences in Jan 2010. Gasps, time and tide really wait for no man. Life doesn't exactly allow for second chances, let alone time for you to take a breather. Phew I'd better enjoy this luxury of timelessness before it runs out in slightly more than a month. I can't believe it's the 20th already and before you know it, it'd be Christmas, NY and WORK. Grr.

I've got some time on hand before I gotta head out for lunch and you would never have guessed/imagined what I've been up to since I got out of bed. I'm leisurely surfing the PB site, after watching snippets of "Polo Boys" on TV yesterday evening (yes, the cringe-worthy local drama series which I'd expect to be fairing better than "Red Thread" cuz of the Hunks in Trunks). I'll bet you didn't know I stalk Nat Ho's blog too. MUAHAHA.

My girlfriends (and the X) who know me so very well will know that I am a fan of BC's clothings; design and size-wise, their stuff fit me the best in comparison to apparels from other sites. So now, I wanna take a poll (stop lying low you phantoms! Click to reply/comment NOW!). Should I buy the dusty-pink heels? Sigh actually you and I both know it's pointless that I'm asking cos I'd probably buy it.

Alas, the festivities are about to begin. Can't wait for Christmas :D Hope I'd be able to do something different (and special) this Advent. I can't wait to get started on my newest mission! I cannot thank God enough for the direction I'm heading towards. I've fallen prey to the devil and haven't been praying as much as I'd wanted to. Note to self and people whom I love, don't forget that God is there for you every step of the way. You mean more than the moon and the stars to Him.

"Please give me what I ask, dear Lord,

If You'd be glad about it.

But if You think it's not for me,

Please help me do without it."

- Traditional

Before I pen off, I'd like to thank everyone who've kept me in their prayers or who have been concerned about how I've been doing so far. I'm healing very well and I'm truly grateful to all who have shown me their love, gave up so much of their time to be with me, tirelessly and without complaints. Repeating themselves silly and feeling angry with me, spending time with me, comforting me. Thank you :)

And to J, I don't hate you. You know I never will. Every passing day, we all learn something about ourselves and about each other, things good and others not-so-nice. It's just not our time. I may not agree with what you are doing and sadly, I have let the devil lead me by the nose. I've said stuff that I don't entirely mean, conjured ideas that shouldn't even have existed in the first place. I shouldn't, and I will break free from it. I know you will too, break free from all the negativity and insecurities. I love you, my friend, it'd just take time for us both to realise this.

Yes, exhibitionism, even pretentiousness, if you'd call it. Maybe it's just a way of making myself feel better. But that's the whole point of blogging, isn't it? At this present moment, I want the world to know how I feel and to empathise with me. I want you to know how forgiving I am. I want myself to know how forgiving I can be.

TGIF and have a great day at work/school today :)